Current location:	College Eight 6202a
Current mood:	Ready
Current music:	| The Sinking Ship Smoke or Fire|

| The Perfect Shot |
Smoke or Fire reminds me of Yukio and when we first got together. While that time of my life was rocky and overwhelming, I still like thinking of our beginning. I like pausing to think of how we overcame the odds brought on by my confused love of Biggs, my growing addiction to casual sex, and my love of alcohol. Maybe he was a rebound -- subconsciously -- but here we are, almost two years later. Next fall I want to take six months off from school and move out of California with him just to work and live together. I don't know how much more college I can take. I have a strong love/hate relationship with Santa Cruz right now. Living in the bubble which is UCSC can just be paralyzing at times. I need to break free of it for just a little while longer than the three months I get off for summer.

This weekend is going to be the best. James will probably take me over the hill. I can't wait to carve pumpkins. Or see Yuk boot. It's the most wonderful time of the year.